Thursday, June 24, 2010
I haven't posted in some time, again, I apologize. This blog is about reflection, reinvention and finding myself...and that is what I have been doing.
I deal with chronic pain, for the past ten years, it was fibromyalgia and I was pretty confident that I had that under control, or at least, could manage the pain.
Since I had surgery last October, a hysterectomy, I haven't been able to "bounce back". It seems the pain has gotten worse, so I finally went to a pain specialist. There I found out that I also have 2 bulging discs, in lower and upper back. In finding out that, I have pinched sciatic nerves. My butt cheeks feel like they are on fire, which goes down both or one leg.
Ok, as long as I know how to deal with this, and that I can do things to make it better- then, ok. I have great doctors now, and I am confident that this will be a temporary thing.
Here is where the struggle begins.
I am a very positive person. The only reason I would post on here about pain, is to help others. But this past week or so, I just really didn't know what to post.
I have prayed and meditated about it and know that being silent isn't going to help anything- in fact, it may even give the wrong message.
So, I will just say that, if you suffer from chronic pain, any type, I am here for you.
I think the most frustrating this is having people in your life that don't understand. The only ones that can truly understand, are the ones that know what it feels like...and not just the pain. I am referring to way this makes you feel mentally, then physically because it's impossible to exerise when you hurt all over.
As the title of the post says- The Show Must Go on...I owe to you, my readers, and I also owe it to myself to just keep going.
I am working on a poem called just that- What Chronic Pain CanNOT do...
So, please have patience with me, as I muddle through this- find a way to deal with this as well as the fibromyalgia.
Together we will make a difference!
Thanks for reading this...I wouldn't be where I am without you guys reading this!